I guess now is a good time for introductions. 

I’m Ellen, I’m 27 and I’ve been through some shit. 

I’m a pretty blunt person with a huge heart. I say how I feel and I don’t typically hold back. I have no filter, no limitations and a pretty big personality. You either love me or hate me. I’ve tried to change that, but I like who I am and I’ve realized that those who don’t, well they don’t deserve my time. 

I am married to my best friend Nick (Nicola, you’ll see I switch between the two here and there). We’ve known each other since middle school, dated on and off in high school/college and got engaged and married at 23. 

Nick and I have two cats, Ziggy and Ollie. My boys are my world.

We live in Honolulu, Hawaii. Nick is in the Army. 

I have no clear path when it comes to life. I have a college degree, a certificate, ideas and dreams but no solid plan. I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. Am I already grown up?

There’s one thing I do know: I get my feelings out best through a keyboard.

 

So here I am, on this ..journey? mission? ..whatever. I plan to open up about my miscarriage, and in doing so I suppose I will be opening up about my marriage, my family, future pregnancies and so much more. 

I don’t really journal and I’m not the best at sticking to things, but here I am. Trying to write about the year following my first pregnancy miscarriage. 

Lets see where this goes…. 

 

*This picture was taken post miscarriage. It is probably one of the happiest days I’ve had since my miscarriage. It’s difficult but here’s the truth; it’s okay to be happy after loss.